ONE WHEEL OUT A TIME.

To my dearest friend, Kathy:

As I sit down at my computer and sip my afternoon coffee waiting for the words for this post to spew out, I realize something. Life is really, really good right now. Better than it has been for quite some time. And as I think about it, I suppose this is because I feel as though I have been able to catch my breath again. My head was spinning to the point where it felt like it was completely disconnected from my body and floating around in space somewhere. I was not myself. I was literally just going through the motions.

Over the last few days, I have felt some of that life that had been sucked from my body enter my soul once again. I am filled with joy. As of right now, I am eleven days infection free and thanks to a miraculous motility medication, I am able to eat without tossing my cookies. I know that this wonderful feeling of not having to deal with a bladder infection will likely not be permanent. I spend a great deal of time right now wondering when it is going to come back. It scares me. I am always on high alert for any symptoms that could send us driving back to the emergency room.

As much as contracting another infection frightens me, I also know that I would have absolutely no quality of life if I chose to dwell on this. Life has taught me that even though I can’t choose what happens to my body and the medical challenges that Cerebral Palsy aggressively shoves in my path, I have complete control over how I react to those changes.

This week, I would like to share with you a piece of advice that a dear friend of mine and a fellow life warrior gifted me with when I was feeling overwhelmed.

“ Breathe. Honour your feelings, and then breathe some more. Put on some music. Dream. Never stop dreaming.”

Joy. It’s my choice. I will not let my circumstances rob me of the joy that comes from living in the moment and celebrating the little victories in my life.

I’ve got this. One wheel at a time.